That is me looking horribly, horribly forlorn.  That is me after having a stupid crying spell about pretty much nothing.  See I entered this Hall of Fame scrapbooking contest. It took me forever to do and the requirements were ridiculously hard this year. And I like SLAVED on it for weeks. And when I was done I was all, “Oh, oh, my God. I am the best scrapbooker in the WHOLE world, and I am so creative and wonderful and I don’t even have to worry because I am so fantastic that of course I am going to win, and it’s too bad my hand just can’t stay on my back to pat it all day because I rock SO MUCH.”  So then I waited like FOREVER to find out if I won (I mean 25 out of 1000 is pretty good odds, no?).  So I belong to this website where people like me obsess about things like this. And so people started posting that they won and I didn’t get called.  And, okay, some people still might get called tomorrow (and sorry for you reading this that aren’t my immediate family, but I won’t be able to tell you if I am one of them for like, a month), but that didn’t matter to me in my moment of hopelessness. My moment of bawling and saying to Bj, “And even if I do win, I mean they will give me an assignment and I won’t be able to finish it because I don’t have kids, and I don’t do anything cool, and I’m a looser, wah, wah, wah.”  People tell me I’m creative (thanks mom!!), but there are lots of people who are creative. I’m starting to wonder if creative means: slightly odd and colorful and a bit off?  Getting the dictionary…3.”Marked by originality and expressiveness; imaginative: One who displays productive originality.”  So I am expressive, but sometimes people just call that drama.  I don’t know.  I feel much better since Bj told me how lovely I was and that I would of course win and all of that.  But if you call me from an 801 area code tomorrow and are not Lisa (the head honcho of this magazine) I will probably have some kind of attack and get in the car and start driving…

My hero in my moment of insanity.  See Bj, we could adopt a deaf child someday, you know the most important sign already!!!